I just want to sleep...

I just want to sleep...

just want to close my eyes

hoping my mind 

will pause to forget

all the thoughts and pain

creeping in my heart 

and in my head...

Voices of my realities 

that never leaves...

   Manuelle Augustine 

        @9292915

Autumn Winds

The autumn winds

Brushing on my skin 

a touch of sadness 

they bring...

The autumn winds

Bringing back the memories 

of the pains

of the promises gone in vain...

The autumn winds

Failing leaves falling 

losing hold of time

blown away by the wind...

    Manuelle Augustine 

          @9262015

Autumn has come...

Autumn has come...

Today I recall

The last autumn 

that were buried 

with the fallen leaves

in Fall...

Lovely colors

of yellow and reds

with orange and brown 

dampened beneath 

lofty lonely trees...

Each leaf

speaks for a time 

of moments of love 

of hopes and dreams 

of tears and pain

swiftly blown away

in one autumn wind...

Just waiting for time...

🍂My flesh shivering 

my body so weak...

could hardly lift a finger...

could hardly take air to breathe...

So tired with sadness...

torn worn by pain...

In my life 

I stopped searching for meaning...

I have lived to my fullest...

I have given my best...

I have loved to the truest...

Now...

just waiting for time

to take my breath and be one with the gale...

So shall my sadness and pain be gone 

then shall my meaning be mine...🍂

       Manuelle Augustine

            @9152015

Tempest...

   

        

Amidst the turbulent waters 

holding on to a pole 

as the cruel flow 

devoured everything 

before his  very eyes...

there he was 

standing for his life...

Then I saw myself...

standing there...

There I was 

caught in the middle 

of my tempest...

So suddenly so swiftly...

my world turned around 

so instantly...

All that I believed

were all washed away...

  Manuelle Augustine

        @9132015

Hopelessness...

Realizing the loss...

The sorrow to know

that the love you love so much

will never ever come back...

The feeling of looking beyond the ocean

far too far gazing on nothingness...

Deep in this heart is pain...

deeper than the ocean...

Hopelessness...

       Manuelle Augustine 

              @972015

If there is...

If there's a place that I could choose to go...

It is to you...

If there's a time that destiny will bring me back

I will stay in my memories of you...

If there's a life that God will allow me to live

I pray to live my lifetime with you...

       Manuelle Augustine 

             @972015

Upon waking up on my every morning...

Upon waking up on my every morning 

I would remind myself again and again...

that though another day in each day

is greeting me in tears and pain

I am breathing every breath 

surrounded by God's amazing grace

comforted with His truth

trusting His faithfulness...

Today as  I woke up to another morning 

though I will face another day

in everyday in pain and tears...

My heart will completely trust His will...

      Manuelle Augustine 

            @9/6/2015

The Best Will of God...

God's will 

is all beautiful 

all wonderful 

all perfect...

Sometimes 

to some they come easy...

to some they come not...

With each life

are different stories

Yet countless as the sand

God deals accordingly with each one...

In different strokes 

but same loving grace...

But most of the time

we wander with our free will...

A lot of us walks in our own way...

many care less about God

or and does not believe in God...

As we trod in our chosen path

faced with many choices

living life in our own understanding 

most of the time 

we are pushed in harms way...

dragged in hurts and pains...

Yet God cares...

Always cares...

But...always

we least recognize 

that He is leading our way...

fixing our crooked crossed roads 

into one straight path

one by one

unloading our loads...

directing our way into His best will...

For He is all knowing...

He knows What's Best...

for each one of us...

"And there are times 

that we need to throw away...

to give up...

to let go...

of the things that 

we dearly value...

to let what is best 

and the good 

and beautiful 

take over 

in our life..."

in obeying and completely trusting 

the will of God...

           Manuelle Augustine 

One September

One September...

I know not how 

where to start to pen

the September in my life 

that I could never forget...

Each day were sealed with tears...

Oh how can I ever forget

the saddest moments in time 

that turned all my days 

into a land of grief...

and the sun 

ceased on rising

dumping my soul 

in unrelenting rain...

In one September in my life

I lost my world...

I lost myself...

Alive pushed buried

in my somber grave...

 

    Manuelle Augustine

         @9/1/2015