Sunday, May 31, 2015

When God...









When God allows the storms to pour
He knows when to stop the fall
He knows when to decorate 
the skies with rainbows 
He knows when
the flowers bloom...

When He sends the thunder to roar 
from His glorious throne 
He speaks  His words
to make us know
the beauty and might
of His grace and truths...

When He shakes the earth
He wants us to learn
that He can do all things
and He will move  mountains 
to declare 
and make us see
the power of His divine will...


       Manuelle Augustine 
                @2015

Thursday, May 28, 2015

In your soul...



You look around
seeking for a place to belong...
overlooking that...
your heart and mind
is where 
you can be your own...
It's there where you can hide
from the arrows of fear, anxieties 
and confusions...
It's where you can cry and shout
when no one hears...
It's there where you can be
your truest self...
There in your soul 
you are safe...
where the spirit of God dwells...


      Manuelle Augustine 
               @2015


Wednesday, May 27, 2015

All I wish...



I don't need recognition
fame or reward 
I don't care for success
and accolade
I don't seek anything 
not a thing...

All I wish is that 
God will heal my heart
from all the hurts...
and help me forget 
all the sadness and pain...



    Manuelle Augustine 
            @2015

I wonder why...




I still wonder why...
God allowed
that you happen
in my life
yet knowing
your heart
that you will only
hurt my heart... 

I wonder why...
He didn't 
block your way 
and stop
to further not advance
and save me 
from your stance...

I still wonder why...
though I comfort myself 
trusting 
that God 
has a reason why...


  Manuelle Augustine 
           @2015

Meaningless...a lamentation



In so many times
I want to break 
disintegrate...
realizing I feel so none...
my existence for me is null...
I breathe each day
for people around me
and for God's will...
but nothing for me...
I find no meaning
for all the hurts and pain 
for all the tears
and suffering 
It consumed and exhausts
my being...
It gives me nothingness 
I find it all meaningless


     Manuelle Augustine 
              @2015

A Crying Soul





Not a Poet at all...
just putting in words
the bewailing of my soul 
No fascinating verses or prose
just echoes of every teardrops
mists of life's blows 
I am no poet at all...
just a wretched heart 
ravaged and consumed 
crying in unending rain
walking through my storms...


    Manuelle Augustine 
             @2015

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Sad Melodies





Sad melodies 
of the memories
in my heart 
they kept playing...

My soul drowned in weepings
realizing all that I believed
have become 
a cruel make believe
after all the love and faith
I fought and lived...

Sad melodies 
of the memories 
my heart still
remembers...


    Manuelle Augustine 
             @2015


Monday, May 25, 2015

God knows I will never forget...



God knows I will never forget 
God knows all my days 
I will live in tears...
God knows my heart 
will never forget
the love that I breathe...
God knows I can never forget...
my heart will never forget...
Only He can do it for me 
Only if He wills...


    Manuelle Augustine 
             @2015

Sunday, May 24, 2015

The Memories



The melody kept playing
The tears kept falling
The heart is holding to 
just but a prayer...
Through all the pain
The heart kept remembering
The sadness lingering 
The memories 
never leaving...


    Manuelle Augustine 
             @2015

In the haze...





Again I gaze 
    on the memories 
I trace the maze 
    to find my place
In the haze
    I see your face
in every detail
   of every tears...


 Manuelle Augustine 
          @2015

Saturday, May 23, 2015

Forever Winter



It was spring 
   when we kissed 
   the promises
   for the dreams
   that we dreamt
   for a place in time 
   we hope together...
It was summer 
   when we gave it all 
   in faith in love 
   so warm and tender 
   with all our best 
   together we made it all...
Soon after 
   the summer is done
   the leaves turned red and brown 
   to the ground they all fell down...
   It was autumn then
   when the colors of the beautiful days
   were  blown by the wind...
The hopes in spring
   and the love in summer
   were all buried in forever winter... 


      Manuelle Augustine 
               @2015


Through those spaces...




He walked through that door
He moved through those spaces
filling every moments
with lovely memories
making the most 
and the best 
that he can give
yet knowing
in his heart
he can never stay
One day he will face
his only option 
to leave...


Manuelle Augustine 
         @2015

Time and Again





Time and again 
I could not tell myself 
to stop remembering 
my heart could not resist
feeling the pain again
bursts with streaming tears 
the sadness lingering 
it never ends...
In all these 
God is always faithfully 
filling my heart with His grace 
reminding me 
time and again 
to completely trust in His will 
In my sadness and pain
I find comfort 
trusting in His will...


    Manuelle Augustine 
             @2015



Thursday, May 21, 2015

Trying to...



Trying to live a day
 in a poetry...
Trying to get over sadness 
through words...
Trying to exist
through my poem...
  

  Manuelle Augustine 
           @2015

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

He knows





He knows I love him still
and I love him always
He knows that I am 
in deep and great pain
Yet...
I know that he struggles
to not think
to not remember...
To forget everything
is to live in peace and obedience
in the life God has given him...
To dust me out
is God's will for him...
though knowing 
that he left and put me 
in a world 
of tears and pain...


   Manuelle Augustine
            @2015

In God's Will




In Gods will


To what God wills for you
To the life He willed for thee
To where you are meant to be 
To where you belong...
is where I don't belong...
What can I do 
It is what God has willed for you...
What can I do 
this is what God has willed for me...


     Manuelle Augustine 
              @2015

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Fading Memories





Here and anywhere 
there are just too many too much
to remind me...
Shrug it off and move on
is easy said...
I dusted off 
off course 
but things don't change
as easily as said...
coz truth and reality is everywhere...
rather must I pluck my sight
or forever close my eyes
and hear not a sound
then  my soul be
in solace...
fading memories...


     Manuelle Augustine 
              @2015

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Always




I will always love you
You know I will always do
You know my heart 
will always stay
in the place in time
where you left me...

Saturday, May 9, 2015

Thorns




Lovely rose 
filled with thorns 
bleeding hearts 
red crimsons 
Bewildered 
staring I be
piercing thorns 
bloody stained 
my heart will be


Manuelle Augustine 
         @2015



In The Wings of Words

Friday, May 8, 2015

She needs you more...



Love your Mother
Forget her not 
She cares and misses you
always remember...
Forsake Her not 
though you are in
whatever and wherever...
Leave her not
through her gray hair
She needs your heart
and hands 
more than ever...
She is a part of you
you are a part of each other...
She gave life to you
She is your Mother...
Leave her not alone
She needs you even more
when things 
she remembers no more...


   Manuelle Augustine@2015

Thursday, May 7, 2015

For Mama ... On Mother's Day




Thank you 
for your love 
you're always there for me...
Thank you for your touch
they warmed and comforted me...
Thank you for your hands 
for guiding and taking care of me
Thank you for your heart 
for teaching me love 
and for loving me 
Thank you Ma
for being my Mama...
I love you Ma...


      Manuelle Augustine 
               @2015

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Moments...



Moments
I wish to have my moments...
Moments back 
of the embraces that I lost...
Moments of the love
that used to be here...
Moments when my tears will dry
and never fall again...
Moments 
when my heart 
could truly smile and breathe...
Moments back 
and forever embrace...


     Manuelle Augustine 
             @2015

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

Mist



Whenever my heart remembers
the moments and the words...
Whenever my heart again 
recalls how the days had been...
and when what I can see around 
are the mist of the memories...
silence and emptiness 
are all that I can hear...
Tears are the only thing
I have sustaining...


      Manuelle Augustine 
               @2015

Shattered




Still looking for the right words 
to describe the pain...
sadness that in no moment
subsided...
As I lay down my head 
on my pillow
tears running down...
In my  dark and silent room
could only hear 
anguish and weepings 
of my grieving soul...
Though refusing  to think 
of what had been
helping myself to go on living 
pushing every step forward 
leaving the past behind...
Yet in every step... 
in every sigh...
are teardrops
for lost time and hopes...
for shattered faith and love...


       Manuelle  Augustine 
                @2015

Sunday, May 3, 2015

Chain of Pain





There's a chain called pain
sealed in rain of tears
each drop have their own
story to tell...

There is a chain called  pain
locked deep within
screaming, wreathing 
breaking in...

There's a chain called pain
of hurts and sins 
of failures and regrets 
of loss and loneliness 
we caused to ourselves 
and inflicting on one another...

You were hurt as you cause hurt 
they were hurt as they cause hurt
The other hurt as another hurts
the chain of hurts 
the chain of pain 
They're all around 
in every story 
in every spark  of tears...



       Manuelle Augustine 
                @2015

Saturday, May 2, 2015

Where I Belong...



When I think of my tears
I think of how my life have been...
I think of the days and moments 
that God has seen...
I think of why God 
allowed them all to happen...
In my tears
I look around...
of after all what have came my way...
of where God have brought me 
and what I have now today...
I pause to think...
after all that He allowed 
and taken away... 
from where and from what
He did not will for me...
I say to my heart and myself
Look around you today...
here and this 
is where God willed you to be...
be quiet now in your soul 
for whatever may be 
in His grace 
is where you belong to be...


       Manuelle Augustine 
                @2015

Friday, May 1, 2015

I am missing the love...




I am missing the love 
the love that is no longer here
the love that pushed my love away 
and closed all tomorrow's doors...

I am missing my love 
the love that I believed was here 
though now I do not know
if what I believed was real...
or was it all a dream unreal...

I am missing my love 
the love that I truly love
the love that l fought for...
the love that I gave my all...
the love that I breathe for...

I am missing the love...
I am missing my gone love...


     Manuelle Augustine 
              @2015